Posted on October 23rd, 2008 at 6:33 pm by Rabbit
Well speak of the Devil! I’ve been accepted to Hatch Show Print’s winter internship program. I’ll be in Nashville for the month of January, working in the shop. Thrilled!
I am headed to Paris today, loosely in conjunction with Human Parts of Me Want to Eat the Flowers off of Trees being a part of the Colette show. This journal will be on holiday until I return on November 2nd.
Lastly, Jessica Hallock sweetly interviewed me about Human Parts of Me. Transcript below.
Jessica Hallock: Meat comes up frequently in Human Parts of Me…. What significance does the eating or handling of meat have for you, & also what significance the fine line between living vessel & lifeless carcass?Jessalyn Wakefield: I grew up eating wild game. My family, at times, also raised and slaughtered our own animals. We lived out in the middle of nowhere, the dogs were always bringing home dead and rotting things. So carcasses were fairly omnipresent in my childhood. Even so, there was always reverence and fascination with a slaughter, or with my father bringing home something from hunting, or even the dogs dragging half rotted deer down the road that just never left me and hasn’t left me to this day. The significance is, I suppose, in the fascination and reverence that I experience at the sight of something dead. I cannot wrap my mind around lifelessness. And that by eating meat you take another body and make it part of your own. That eating meat, muscle tissue, specifically feeds your own muscles. That’s an incredibly powerful act to me. Flesh of my flesh.That fine line between living vessel and lifeless carcass exists for me as Mystery.JH: Early in the dialogue between the Angel & the Woman in The Waters of Jordan there are motions of voicelessness, of an inability to give voice - characters cutting off, falling silent, long spaces between phrases - that seem remniscient of Beckett, whereas in the stories this voicelessness is expressed more in obscenities, a failure to attend to dialogue, discontinuity in speech, etc. - do you feel this disconnect, or gap, between the voiced & the intended in your own life?JW: It’s less voiced and the intended, that is, the internal and the external, and more about the internal voice and the internal comprehension of that voice. I feel a constant inability for my self to communicate with its Self. I experience a huge disconnect in understanding what I am thinking and feeling and experiencing, being able to name what is going on internally. I often have inappropriate emotional reactions to situations, or don’t understand why I have the reactions that I do, or don’t know what I am feeling or thinking about a situation at all. My interaction with the external is fairly naive and surface most of the time.JH: Are the nausea & disgust (or self-loathing) encountered in your stories emblematic of a response to the absurdity of existence, or more a result of a distance from that existence? Or something else entirely?JW: I think the disgust and the nausea go back to the previous question, having to do with the frustration and perplexity I experience at the closed off nature of my internal life. Experiencing strong reactions and being unable to deal with them because I cannot name them, experiencing a void when I know I should be experiencing a reaction. Etc. It all builds into a sickness, you know?JH: What is the significance of the animals in the scene?
JW: Need. Submission and humiliation because of need.
